Tuesday, December 17, 2019

The stigma of suicide


The Stigma of Suicide

David Lester

            Last week, I revisited the National Civil Rights Museum at the Lorraine Hotel in Memphis, Tennessee. I was last there 15 years ago and, in the first poster back then, there was mention of the resistance by the slaves against their slavery. The poster mentioned acts of destruction of the slave owners’ property, and the poster also mentioned suicide. That word acted like a neon sign to me, and I soon published an article on suicide in slaves.

            The re-modeled museum no longer has that poster, and it makes no mention of suicide.

            I think a similar avoidance of the mention of suicide is found in institutions centered around the Holocaust. Yes, suicide occurred, and Konrad Kwiet and I have written books on the topic, but those involved in Holocaust centers prefer to avoid this topic.

            We know that suicide has always had stigma associated with it, and this stigma persists. I think that suicide is typically viewed as acts made by people who are psychiatrically disturbed. The prevailing view today is that almost all suicides have a psychiatric disorder, with the implication that such people cannot make rational decisions, a position that I strongly disagree with. It is also viewed as a sign of weakness, another position that I strongly disagree with.

            But it understandable that, if you hold both positions, suicide among those that the institutions are honoring is something that institutions would prefer to ignore.

            A pity.


Sunday, July 28, 2019

A Night in the Life of a Night-Watcher


A Night in the Life of a Night-Watcher[1]

 

David Lester

 

You may not know that, a long time ago (1969-1971), when I was Director of Research and Evaluation at the suicide prevention center in Buffalo (NY), I trained as a crisis counselor and took two night shifts. Because I was in charge of evaluating the service, it was important that I participate in the process. (I also had one face-to-face client during my time at the center.) Here is my account of that night.

 

 

It hadn’t been too good a day. I still had a cold and I was a bit depressed. Things improved a little during the day and by late afternoon I was calmer. I left the SPCS at 4:30 to get a combined lunch/dinner and was back by 5:00 p.m. when I was on.

For the first few minutes I tidied up the telephone room as I usually do. I hate just sitting there waiting for a call.

5:10 I got a call for Al (who wasn’t around).

5:20 A call came in for Elsa, but she was in with a patient.

5:32 A girl called on the teenage line. Ann was pregnant (I checked to see whether a doctor had confirmed it – yes) and didn’t know whether to tell her boyfriend or her parents first. There seemed to be no problems. She wanted to have the child, the boyfriend knew she might be pregnant, and her parents would probably act ok. She was just a little anxious. I told her to tell her boyfriend first and then see her parents together. I found it a little difficult to keep talking, but I felt I handled it ok. After I hung up, I remembered to watch how often I say “yes” and “mm-hmm.”

5:49 Another call for Elsa but she was still in with a patient. I got talking to Fred and John who were also working about what to suggest for a girl whose father is making her act like a housewife and who is cruel.

5:59 A call from someone in the evening’s training session who would be late. Then I talked to Mandi about her boat and about the possibility of going out for a night in a police car and to Marcia about the training group that evening.

6:16 A call on the teenage line from an anonymous girl (I didn’t ask her name) who was concerned with whether to go out with this boy since she had found out he laid the last girl he went out with. I told her if she felt she could handle him, why not. I felt uneasy about the call. First, I got another call in the middle of it and since John and Fred had disappeared, I had to answer it. He wanted a girl to talk to but none were around, so he hung up. I hate interrupting a call. If he had called when I was free, I might have got him talking. (Fred had a call later from someone who wanted a particular counselor who wasn’t around, and Fred let the caller hang up without asking whether he could help. The same kind of situation. Maybe they would hang up anyway but it’s easy to facilitate them hanging-up. I didn’t say anything to Fred. I would have felt awkward doing so.)

Secondly, Marcia was walking in and out, and I felt inhibited, which is dumb (after all she supervises me).

6:22 A call on the teen line from a girl who hung-up after saying only a few words. I then went out and locked the outside door (it’s supposed to be locked after 5 p.m.) and tidied up some more in the room.

            6:32 A call from Elsa’s daughter but Elsa was still busy. I went and locked the outside door again!

            6:35 A hang-up on the teen line.

            6:39 A call on the teen line. I was in toilet at the time, and I knew Fred and John were on calls. So I ran back, breathless, answered the damn call with “suicide – er – teenage problem service”. The girl didn’t want to talk to me so we hung-up. Boy it hadn’t been too good an evening so far.

            6:40 Doreen called for Elsa and left a message.

            6:49 A call on the teen line from Joyce whose boyfriend had broken up with her because she pestered him so much asking whether he liked her. It was difficult to get her to focus. She knew what she was doing wrong but kept drifting onto other topics. I felt it went ok.

            7:03 A call for Killian. He wasn’t in yet.

7:05 A call on the teen line from Carol. Carol calls up a lot and knows most of the male counselors. I like her. She’s easy to talk to and is pleasant. If another call comes in or you are busy she understands. Tonight, she told me that she had found out who I am. She knows I’m Dr. David Lester, a research psychologist and not just David. It seems Killian gave out the information to a friend of hers. (Remember to kill Killian.) We talked about she felt when she found out. Carol doesn’t seem to have any problems. She just likes to talk. She likes having some friends down at the SPCS. After 45 minutes she said she has to hang-up since someone had arrived which was a pity since she said she had something important to tell me.

            8:33 Picked up a call the same time as Killian but he took it.

            8:33 Called home.

            Lots of people left the center. The training group probable broke up. I went and locked the door again.

            8:52 Went and locked the door again. There were still people around. I decided to give up locking the door. I reckoned the other door didn’t have a lock so why bother. (I found out the next day that both doors have locks.)

            8:55 A crank call on the teenline. They were laughing too much to talk.

            8:56 Jane called for John. He was busy on a call. She said she’d call back.

            8:57 A girl called on the teen line ehose friend was pregnant. She hadn’t had a test yet, so I recommended going to a doctor or Planned Parenthood for a test. After the call was over, I found Al’s handout on referrals and realized I should have had the girl call him. But I did tell her to call back.

            9:03 A call from Miguel who had just arrived in Buffalo from Chicago. He had had a job but had been fired. He had been thrown out by two aunts and now was living with an uncle and was expecting to get thrown out by him too. I referred him to the Youth Employment Program. Then we chatted some more. He sounded nice. We talked about how lonely he must be. I tried to get him to talk about why he had been thrown out of two homes and fired, but he wouldn’t focus too well. Debbie, one of the trainees was listening in to the call.

Then Killian told me to listen in to Emma, one of our chronic callers who a lot of people don’t like too well. Killian seemed to get on with her and liked her. They talked for over an hour on and off. I listened in to a few minutes and was glad Killian had the call.

9:33 Mary called on the teen line. She is the other regular caller that I like and get on with. She sounded fine. I remembered that Fred said she had called earlier and was upset. We talked awhile. I mentioned the letter she had sent me. She told me she had cut her wrists last Thursday and again on Friday. I remembered Fred had told me about that. She had been interviewed by Dave with everyone watching through the one-way mirror on Thursday. I asked her why she had cut her wrists, but she couldn’t answer. I think maybe I confronted her a little too much because she said she had to hang-up to go eat because she was anemic. Maybe she really did. She said she’ll call back. Debbie listened in to that call and we talked about it afterwards. I hoped she would call back.

9:50 A social worker called on the teen line asking for the number of the drug line. I told him I would do. He wanted a place for the parent of a kid who had been busted for marijuana to call for advice. He asked about A.I.D. but I thought that was for hard drug users. I told him to call Al during the day.

10:00 I let Debbie out of the building.

10:01 A call from Vera on the teen line. She’s 13 and wanted to know if glue-sniffing would cause brain-damage. I said yes. Talked a little bit, and she said she calls a lot. I tried to get her to call Al during the day. I told her he is talking with a lot of kids who sniff glue. I talked to her for about 7 minutes. I felt bad afterwards. Maybe it wasn’t necessary to talk to her for a longer time, but I realized that if it had been Carol or Mary I would have. It was as if she wasn’t one of my regulars. I don’t like acquiring regulars, and the teen line regulars are more clinging than those on the suicide line. For example, Emma will talk to anyone and doesn’t seem to get attached to one person. But it’s more than that. In spite of the fact that maybe it’s ok not to go on and on with callers, I felt bad because I do with some.

10:20 A wrong-number on the suicide line.

10:26 A call from a girl on the teen line (I didn’t ask her name) who was worried because her friend was sleeping around. She wouldn’t talk much which gets me uptight. I gave her some advice, but I hate giving advice when the person doesn’t respond to it. Yet I also hate sitting there in silence. However, I do encourage every caller to call back to tell us how things went or if they need any further advice.

10:37 Jane called again for John. I put her on hold.

10:38 A hang-up on the teen line.

10:50 A call on the teen line from Helen who wanted this boy to ask her out. One of those two-minute calls where anything you say seems to be satisfactory.

10:55 I went on home, hiding my wallet inside my trousers in case I got robbed on the way to the car. It was a standard 5 p.m. to 11 p.m. shift. All the patient calls were on the teen lines. I got calls from Carol and Mary. At least I felt good after two of them (Ann’s and Miguel’s). That doesn’t always happen.

 



[1] Details about patients have been changed to prevent identification. Al, Dave, Doran, Elsa, Mandi, and Marcia are staff members. Debbie, Fred, John, and Killian are volunteers. During this shift I was one of three volunteers taking calls. The SPCS had four separate telephone numbers, but they all come to the same counselors: suicide prevention, problems in living, drug hotline and teen hotline. We later moved the teen hotline to a youth group to run.

Saturday, June 29, 2019

Suicide by Pilots of Commercial Aicraft


SUICIDE BY PILOTS OF COMMERCIAL AIRCRAFT: THE MISSING MALAYSIAN AIRLINES FLIGHT MH370

 

David Lester

 

            I noted in 2002 (Lester, 2002) that occasionally pilots of commercial aircraft die by suicide while piloting their plane full of passengers.[1] The example I gave was of Gameel-al-Batouti, the co-pilot of EgyptAir flight 900 which crashed into the Atlantic Ocean on October 31, 1999, an act which seemed to be suicidal Langewiesche (2001).

 

            More recently, Langewiesche (2019) has given more examples of possible suicides by pilots: (1) in 1997, the pilot of a SilkAir plane (an Indonesian airline) is believed to have disabled the black boxes of his Boeing 737 and crashed the plane into a river, (2) the pilot of a LAM Mozambique Airlines flight 470 flew his Embraer E190 into the ground killing all 27 passengers, and (3) Andreas Lubitz, the co-pilot, crashed his Germanwings Airbus into the French Alps, having locked the pilot out of the cockpit when the pilot went to the bathroom.

 

            In his new article, Langewiesche argues that the most likely scenario for the missing Malaysian Airlines flight 370, which disappeared over the Indian Ocean March 8, 2014, was that the pilot deliberately choose to die by suicide, taking all the passengers and crew (who were most likely already dead inside the plane) with him.

 

            Langewiesche saw the co-pilot as an unlikely instigator or collaborator. He was young, an optimist and planning to get married. He had no history which would suggest suicidal inclinations. In contrast, the co-pilot of the Germanwings plane that crashed flew for budget airlines with low pay and showed signs in the past of psychological problems.

 

            In contrast, the pilot of MH370, Amad Shah Zaharie, although described by his family and the authorities as a happy family man and excellent pilot, was described by friends as often sad and lonely. His wife had moved out to their second home, and Zaharie spent the time between flights pacing empty rooms. He had a wistful relationship with a married woman who had three children, he was interested in two Internet models whom he met on social media, and he had a history of liaisons with the flight attendants. Some who knew him thought he was clinically depressed. Prior to the disappearance of MH370, Zaharie had experimented in a simulator with the flight path that MH370 most likely followed.

 

            In none of these cases was a reputable and thorough psychological autopsy carried by a qualified suicidologist, and so the conclusion that these pilots and co-pilots chose to die by suicide, killing their passengers as collateral damage, must remain a hypothesis. However, suicide remains the most likely cause of the crashes given current information.

 

References

 

Langewiesche, W. (2001). The crash of EgyptAir 900. Atlantic Monthly, 288(4), 68-92.

Langewiesche, W. (2019). “Goodnight Malaysian three-seven-zero.” Atlantic Monthly, 324(1), 78-94.

Lester, D. (2002). Suicide and aircraft. Crisis, 23, 2.



[1] I also noted cases of passengers dying by suicide by causing the plane to crash and a pilot who died by suicide after he had crashed his plane.

Thursday, June 20, 2019

Where Did AAS Go Wrong


Where Did AAS Go Wrong

David Lester

            Back in the 1970s, the American Association of Suicidology (AAS) was a small organization. Founded by Ed Shneidman and others, AAS was an organization for researchers into suicidal behavior and those working at suicide prevention centers (mainly telephone crisis counselors and administrators) to meet and discuss new ideas. It was administered by Julie Perlman who was not a suicidologist, and she ran the organization well.

            The conferences were fun and exciting. Thomas Szasz was invited to argue against preventing suicide and was engaged in heated debate. Derek Humphry, author of Final Exit, was invited.

            Then a decision was made to increase the membership of AAS. The more members, it was thought, the more income and the greater the influence. The first group to be invited consisted of survivors, that is, those who had lost a loved-one to suicide. On the whole, the survivors were not interest in research or improving our ability to understand and prevent suicide. Participating in AAS was part of the grieving process for them, a chance to share powerful emotions with others. For some, it became almost a new career path.

            As I see it, the goals of AAS should be to improve our understanding of suicide and to improve the ways we can prevent suicide. Survivors were not involved in this. There were exceptions, of course. For example, I worked with Donna Barnes and Denise Pazur, both of whom lost sons to suicide, and we published several scholarly articles together. These were exceptions.[1]

            The next decision was to encourage attempted suicides to join AAS. Again, these individuals typically have no interest in research, but rather in finding others with whom to share their experiences and to obtain therapeutic benefit. This is manifest in that most attempted suicides and survivors do not want AAS’s scholarly journal (Suicide and Life-Threatening Behavior) and were offered a reduced membership fee.

            The results over the years has been to marginalize the researchers. When I used to attend, colleagues joked that research sessions were getting scheduled earlier and earlier so as to get them out of the way, andnd the President of AAS has less often been a leading researcher.

            A look at the listserve maintained by AAS for members and others who are interested illustrates the problem. Occasionally, a research issue is discussed, and published papers suggested on particular issues. Counselors request possible referrals to experts for counselling suicidal individuals in their home towns. But other issues flood the listserve too.

            A mention of an article on rising suicide in white males (who also constitute the major proportion of suicides in the USA) prompted posts about how white males dominate the political and business arenas. These posts did nothing to further our understanding of suicide but rather fed into a social-political agenda of those posting, appropriate in some arenas, but not at AAS. One post claimed that minorities by ethnicity and gender felt marginalized by AAS. I doubt that any researcher or crisis counsellor feels marginalized by AAS because of ethnicity, gender or any other attribute. The most recent president of AAS was criticized for using a war analogy in his presidential address (a war on suicide), which was deemed politically incorrect, and he subsequently resigned.

            AAS has thus become less effective in its goals of understanding suicide than in the past, although researchers still continue to attend.

            There is, of course, an alternative, the International Academy of Suicide Research which was founded by myself and Rene Diekstra, initially under the auspices of IASP, with an initial conference sponsored by Diego de Leo in Padua, Italy. However, some complain these days that those researchers favouring a physiological approach (focusing on the central nervous system) dominate IASR.

            What might be useful would be conferences designed to address a specific issue with invitations sent only to those interested in the issue. For example, back in the 1970s, I attended a conference in Philadelphia, closed to others who were not invited, on the topic of predicting suicide. About 20 of us sat in a room, gave talks and discussed relevant issues about prediction. The talks were published as The Prediction of Suicide in 1974 edited by Aaron Beck, Harvey Resnick and Daniel Lettieri. The same might be achieved by edited books on particular issues. Presently, I am editing a book on Understanding Suicidal Ideation with eight invited contributors which might serve such a purpose. Indeed, I hope in my concluding chapter to suggest avenues where research into suicidal ideation might go in the future


[1] Of course, some of the researchers are also survivors.

My Professors


My Professors

David Lester

Cambridge University

            Part 1 of my Cambridge University degree was in Physics and Mathematics, and I switched to psychology in January of my second year.[1] I knew nothing about psychology, and so I got a book, from around 1920 from the local public library to see what I had let myself in for. I had been assigned to Alan Welford as Director of Studies, and he wrote to me to stop reading that book. He advised me to read books by Hans Eysenck instead. I was puzzled. A mathematics book from the 1920s would still be useful. Why not a psychology book from the 1920s?

Alan Welford

            I knew Welford’s specialty was aging, but I never took a course from him. We met weekly to discuss my progress, but I don’t recall what we talked about or that he set me any assignments. He left soon after my three years at Cambridge to go to a university in Australia.
            When I look him up now, I realize that he was a notable figure. He, along with others, started the Ergonomic Society which received a Royal Charter and a scholarly journal Ergonomics. The Human Factors and Ergonomics Society of Australia gives an annual Alan Welford Award, and Ergonomics publishes an annual Alan Welford Memorial Lecture. This seems to be a pattern in my life in that I often failed to realize how good and occasionally famous my teachers were.
            I applied to only two Universities in America for graduate study in 1964, and one was in human factors at Berkeley. They offered me a place and a promise of financial support, but I turned them down. In retrospect, that application must have been influenced by Welford.

Hans Eysenck

            A mention of Hans Eysenck in America led to raised eyebrows and signs of disapproval. He published a great deal and, if someone criticized his work or ideas, he would immediately have a reply in the journal. He published in many fields (intelligence, personality, and learning theory) and had ideas which became unpopular. For example, he believed that intelligence was determined in part by genetics. And he hated psychoanalysis.
            But I have always liked Eysenck. Those books I read by him encouraged me to think that my change of topics was a good move. Sense and Nonsense in Psychology, Fact and Fiction in Psychology, and Uses and Abuses of Psychology were all very interesting reads. I came not to share his ideas, although I have used his three dimensions of personality in my work (extraversion, neuroticism and psychoticism), and I have even proposed a physiological basis for them (which remains unnoticed). But I liked his spirit and energy.
            He was the editor of Personality and Individual Differences for many years and probably made decisions to accept or reject many articles himself without other reviewers. He accepted many of my papers in my early years, which is another reason for me to like him.
            On one occasion, he accepted a paper of mine on personality and blood types, but he mentioned that he had a paper related to mine and asked whether I might cite it. I immediately wrote back and apologized for not citing it, and I added mention of it to my paper. He wanted as many citations as possible and, in these days of ResearchGate and Google Scholar, I cannot blame him.

Alan Watson

            After the chair of the Department of Experimental Psychology, there were three senior people, readers in Cambridge terminology. Alan Watson was one of the two really brilliant people I have met. He did not finish his PhD. He said that he widened the mazes in which he ran his rats, and the results changed drastically. This disillusioned him, and he stopped working on his dissertation. In his lectures, he organized the material into a beautiful story as he pieced the results of different studies on learning together (mainly in rats), and he did it without notes.

Richard Gregory

            The second senior person was Richard Gregory, also without a PhD, but again who was very clever. Looking him up, I find that was honored by the Queen with the CBE. His topic was perception, and the book I admired was Eye and Brain. He was able to explain aspects of perception with simple demonstrations rather than experiments, such as why the world appears to remain stable when you move your eyes. He used to joke that his major ideas came from reading, in German, old scholarly journals from the late 1800s and re-discovering those ideas. (Perhaps it was not a joke.) I remember that he re-discovered a sea creature in the Mediterranean with one light receptor that scanned the visual field, much as television cameras did. He also disagreed vehemently with the ideas of the American psychologist J. J. Gibson, and I found Gibson’s ideas boring and Gregory’s exciting.
            He left Cambridge soon after I did and ended his career at the University of Bristol University, His Wikipedia page is impressive! It turns out that he studied and wrote a book on the first blind personal to have his sight restored, which I read at the time. That individual died by suicide after a year or so. My first brush with suicide.

Alice Heim

            Alice did have a PhD. She supervised what we call in America my senior thesis. It was on an intelligence test (the Shaw Blocks Test) which does not penalize creativity. She published my research as a one-page note in Psychological Reports in 1964, which started me on my 1,000 notes in Psychological Reports and Perceptual and Motor Skills. Blame it on Alice!
            I kept in touch with her and, when I went back to Cambridge to be examined for my PhD in social and political science, I stayed at her house. She was very old but working on a book on memory loss in old age (Where did I put my spectacles?). She has over 30 articles in PsycInfo and a book which I liked, Intelligence and Personality, in which she argued that intelligence was better viewed as a personality trait.

The Others

            Oliver Zangwill was the chair of the department, a neuropsychologist, and a Fellow of the Royal Society. I knew him only because he interviewed me when I switched from physics to psychology and approved the switch. I also attended his lectures (I attended every lecture given by the department in my 1½ years there). He never looked at the audience (of about 40 of us), and students at back would hold up lighted matches to see if he would notice them. He never did.
            Lawrence Weiskrantz was American and the third senior person in the department. PsycInfo indicates that he was still publishing as of 2017. His Wikipedia page is impressive too, with many discoveries and honors. He too left Cambridge and ended up at Oxford University. However, for me, he gave the first lecture I had in the department, and he was s physiological psychologist. His lecture left me wondering whether I had made the right choice to switch. My notes from that lecture contained the word emigdala, and it was a year before I found out that he was referring to the amygdala.
            The department was a Department of Experimental Psychology: learning perception and physiological psychology primarily. But one day in the department’s library, I saw a book Clues to Suicide by Edwin Shneidman and Norman Farberow. I browsed through it and, at the end, there are 33 pairs of suicide notes, one genuine and one simulated. I should have tested myself to see how many I could distinguish correctly, but I did not. It seemed to me to be obvious which were the genuine ones, and some moved me to tears. Serendipity indeed!

Brandeis University

            Alan Welford and I had never heard of Brandeis University, and we had no idea that it was primarily a Jewish university. But they offered me a fellowship ($3,000 a year) to live on and free tuition. I was not given the Wien Fellowship for foreign students (that went to John Benjafield from Canada), but instead a Charles Revson Fellowship. Revson was the CEO of Revlon Cosmetics, and so I always urged people to buy Revlon to support my fellowship.
            I applied to Brandeis because they had sent a flier to the Cambridge psychology department. We looked up the faculty, and we had heard of none of them, including Maslow. The department had 12 faculty, 4 in humanistic psychology, 4 in clinical psychology and 4 in experimental psychology, and the rumor was that the three groups never spoke to one another!

Jerome Wodinsky

            Jerry was the as brilliant as Alan Watson at Cambridge. He taught learning and, because he did not offer a graduate course, I audited his undergraduate curse. From a few notes on the back of an envelope, he would produce a brilliant lecture. Jerry was unusual in that he hung out with the graduate students. He would have coffee with us in the cafeteria (the Castle). I remember him once teasing an elderly graduate student saying, “Fred, how many Israeli soldiers would it take to defeat the Viet Cong? A thousand? Two thousand?” He drove a convertible and had it fill with snow one winter because he forgot to put the roof back up. He was the only faculty member we called by his first name.
            Jerry published occasionally but had lots of unpublished studies. His scholarly and academic life seemed always to be in a muddle. He hadn’t even got his grades in from his previous job at the New School.

Ricardo Morant

            Rick was the chair of the department, and his field was perception. One summer, we worked with him on a project in Boston to teach illiterates to read. He told us to call him Rick, but I never could. (The project seemed to be failure on the tests we gave pre and post the teaching, but I remember one elderly man signing his name for the first time in his life, and we all had tears. And one woman told us that, for the first time in her life, she could tell the number of the bus approaching the bus stop and didn’t have to ask someone else what the number was.)
            Morant was good to me. In my fights with the faculty of the department, he would call me into his office, sit me down and look for a solution (or a way around) the problem. I used to threaten to quit, saying I could get a PhD from Cambridge and didn’t need them (which I eventually did, getting my second PhD). My major fight was with my first advisor who was threatened by the fact that I was publishing many articles while still a graduate student. He had a rule passed saying that graduate students would have to get each article approved by the faculty before submission. My argument was that I had published more than he had, and so he needed approval too. Rick’s solution was to have a friend who had just earned her PhD (Denise Thum) approve my articles. Denise ok’d the first paper I showed her without reading it, and then I stopped showing them to her.
            MA degrees were given as consolation prizes when the department threw you out, but I wanted to earn an honest MA. The rules said that one could submit published papers for an MA, so I submitted my paper in Psychological Bulletin on the fear of death along with a few others. When the university asked Rick to sign the form, he was astounded. “You didn’t have to do that,” he said. “We would have given you an MA.” But he made up a title and contents, and I was awarded the MA. I was the only graduate student to do that.

Marianne Simmel

            Marianne was the granddaughter of Georg Simmel, the German sociologist. Marianne was a warm person, and I remained friends with her after she retired, often visiting her at her home on Cape Cod. Her main interest was phantom pain, and she re-worked the data from a couple of studies that she had conducted into paper after paper. She shepherded two students to their PhDs (John Benjafield and Claire Golomb), quite an achievement in that department where few students finished their studies.
            I remember her also for two things she said to me. In England, I had been the top student until my BA when, instead of getting a first, I got an upper second. or 2-1. (They awarded only one first in psychology that year. I have checked on him, and he’s never published!). With a 2-1, I could have stayed at Cambridge for my PhD. (With a 2-2 or lower, one had to go to a provincial [red brick] university.) Now that I wasn’t perfect, all I wanted at Brandeis was to pass. After one qualifying exam, Marianne said to me, “You passed, David, but you should have done better.” I acknowledged her criticism but, back in the graduate student lounge, rejoiced that I had passed.
            The second thing that Marianne said to me? I commented once that Maslow had only one good idea in his life. Marianne said to me, “David, if you have one good idea in your life, you will be very happy.” I’m still waiting for that one good idea!
            Which brings me, at last to Maslow.

Abraham Maslow

            Although we had not heard of Maslow at Cambridge, I quickly learned how famous he was. He refused to teach graduate students because, he said, they were too arrogant, and so I audited an undergraduate course with him. He taught the course on utopias with a historian, Frank Manuel. Manual was a noisy energetic teacher, often hitting the table with his trouser leg. (Manual had only one leg, and so one trouser leg was free.) In fact, Manual dominated the seminar, and Maslow was content to let him do so.
            Because I had been in that course, Abe asked me to be his TA for his undergraduate course on eupsychia. On one occasion, the students told Abe he was talking too much and that he was to remain quiet during discussions until they asked him a question. He let them do this for a few classes, and then took over again.
            One another occasion, the students asked him to clarify a point. He had said that people were inflexible in one lecture but that they were inflexible in another lecture. Abe said that child rearing shaped us in many ways. He said that, if he had been born in Germany, he might have come to accept many fascist views. But in many ways, especially as far as genetics and physiological processes were concerned, we were inflexible. For example, he said, one day when his wife was out, he tried to breast feed his infant daughter. He held her to his nipple but, not only didn’t it feel good to him, but also she didn’t get any milk.
            There was panic in the students. They did not know how to respond. Was this funny? Or was it serious? They kept looking at one another, but no one laughed, so they concluded that it was serious, and they all bent over to write notes. For myself, in the corner at the back, I clapped my hand over my mouth trying to mask my laughter. If one student had laughed, they all would have joined in. An example of the social comparison process. I couldn’t wait to get to the graduate student lounge and tell the others the story.
            Abe was on my dissertation committee. My original thesis advisor had thrown me out after I had complained about the rule he had passed about graduate students publishing. I then turned to James Klee who agree to be in charge of my already-written thesis. John Senden and Abe were on the committee, along with Irving Zola, a sociologist. Senden wanted changes in my dissertation, but I made a plea. I said that, in published articles, one had to lie. You pretended that you knew your hypothesis before you ran the study, and you left out parts that were in conflict with your hypothesis. Since your PhD dissertation was unpublished, you could be honest and detail the false steps you made and the wrong turnings you made on the journey. Zola was delighted. “David,” he said. “Don’t change a word.” In fact, one chapter moved to an appendix, and that was all.
            When I went in to Abe’s office, he was lying on his couch, and I sat in his chair. “David, I would never write a thesis like this,” he said. I had a mild anxiety attack. “But who am I to tell you how to write your thesis. I think you will be a good psychologist. Are you happy with your thesis?” I said that I was. “Well then, I am too,” and he signed it. Abe was one of the few psychologists who lived according to his theoretical ideas.

George Kelly

            I was lucky that George Kelly, another leading personality theorist, retired from Ohio State University, and came to Brandeis. I took his graduate student seminar which was, of course, on his theory of personal constructs. I admire his theory, but I do not believe that it is correct. Nonetheless, I have incorporated some of the ideas in the theory in my own subself theory of personality, especially the idea of having propositions and corollaries in a theory.
            Kelly was strict in his professional and personal views. One story was that he had the junior faculty over to his home, and my hated original advisor made the mistake of lighting a cigarette before realizing that there were no ash trays anywhere in the room. When he came to Brandeis, Kelly brought a graduate student who liked his theory with him (Jack Adams-Webber). In the seminar, Jack and a few others who clearly liked the theory sat quietly, while others challenged the theory. At an early meeting of the seminar, Kelly said that he did want his disciples to hear the criticisms and that he wanted to split the seminar into two seminars – those for him and those against him. Those for him objected. They said they wanted to hear the criticism and Kelly’s response to them. So we stayed together. So much for Kelly’s idea of constructive alternativism!
            My thesis consisted of several studies on suicide, and I used Kelly’s RES Test in one of those studies, but I did not want Kelly on my committee.

My Dissertation

            My entering group of eight graduate students was the last group at Brandeis to be allowed to choose their own topic for their dissertation rather than being assigned to work on a professor’s research. Although I was running rats for fun on research into exploratory behavior (and later received a NIMH small grant for the research), I chose suicide, the influence of that serendipitous event at Cambridge.
            Morant suggested we get Edwin Shneidman to be the outside reader on my committee, an idea I vetoed. I had had two interactions with Ed. Once he called the department and asked to speak to me. I was astounded. He told me that he liked my research on suicide but that I needed clinical experience. My wife at the time and I later visited Ed at his NIMH office (where he ran a section on suicide research). He started by focusing on my wife. What did she study? Perception, and he took off his glasses. The meeting went on in that tone, until he said, “Ok, kiddies. That’s all.” He loaded me with reprints of his work and sent us on our way.
            At conferences, Ed always knew that I did not like him. He could have helped me in many ways in my career, but never offered to do so. When Antoon Leenaars proposed a festschrift for Ed, Ed rejected the idea of having me write a chapter. If my chapter had been included, it would have been the only one which took Ed’s ideas and enlarged on them. In the chapters that were included, the authors talked of their own research, not Ed’s. I published my chapter in a journal and sent a copy to Ed, noting that it had been written for his festschrift. As he lay dying, bedridden at home, I talked to him a couple of times on the telephone. After all, his book had shaped by scholarly career, and his ideas and research were ground-breaking. Sometimes I can forgive, He admitted that he had been wrong to reject my chapter.


[1] The BA program takes three years.